Decisions, decisions

This year I’ve decided to take part in the Assistance Dog blog Carnival and the topic is decisions. Over the past 15 years I’ve had to make many decisions in regards to applying for, working with, retiring, and then raising an assistance dog. Not many people can actually say they’ve been involved in all areas of the service dog experience, but here’s my story.

In the summer of 1993 my shunt (a tube which runs from my brain into my abdomen) blocked. This caused the cerebral fluid around my brain to build up and create pressure which damaged my optic nerves. In a matter of a couple weeks, I went from seeing 20/20 to seeing nothing out of my left eye and only through 3 pin holes in the very centre of my right. It was tough at first, but I had the support of an amazing vision teacher who re-taught me everything from completing daily tasks to getting around the world with a white cane, in addition to a mother who refused to see me any different from the daughter she had given birth to 13 years prior. Now that I’ve laid out some background information to my story, let’s move on to the day I decided to apply for my first guide.

From the first day I was introduced to the white cane I knew I had to get rid of it. I hated the way it felt in my hand, the way people looked at me, the ways it limited me, and well….it was just plain ugly! I made a point of telling my vision teacher this almost every time we had a lesson until the day she told me about guide dogs. I had always wanted a pet dog and to know there was a way of both getting rid of my cane and having a dog of my own, I told her I’d do anything she wanted. She told me that if I worked hard over the next couple of years she’d help me convince my parents to let me get a dog and that she’d help me with the application. It was a long 3 years, but finally in January of 1997 my vision teacher and I began researching programs and decided on the Lions foundation of Canada Dog Guides because it was close to my hometown (Aurora, Ontario) and because the classes were small. I received my first guide, Gryphon, in August of that year and put my white cane on the shelf forever.

Gryphon was a 21 month old tall, slim, male black labrador retriever who weighed about 81lbs. We were matched around August 1st of 1997 and worked together for only a year. Gryphon was not the right dog for me, but he worked well and the trainers felt he was a good fit for a young first time handler, who just happened to be the youngest they’d ever accepted into the program. Gryphon was a great dog and he taught me tons, but we never bonded the way a working team should so, when he was career changed after only a year I wasn’t too upset. Gryphon had become traffic shy after an altercation with a car in Toronto and both the trainers at LFC and myself were unable to get him past his fears. He was later retrained as a special Skills Dog and worked for a while before being retired for health reasons.

Phoenix and I were matched in July of 1998 and worked together for almost 7 years. I remember our time in class together, he was only 20 months and full of personality. From day one he has always had his opinions on how things should be done and has never been afraid to let me know what he’s thinking. We attended my final year of high school together and then completed an entire honors degree at the University of Guelph. Phoenix had severe separation anxiety until he retired so accompanied me on excursions I’d never dream of taking Cessna to – a packed Montreal night club, the outdoor Walkerton Country Music Festival or full day visits to Canada’s Wonderland, just to name a few. Phoenix was always faithful and willing to work at any hour and in any environment, but at the age of 8 and a half he began slowing down and wanting to just chill at home rather than work, so I knew it was time for retirement. It was a hard decision because we had developed such a bond and I worried about hurting his feelings by getting a new guide to replace him. But, most of all I worried about the training process and the hardships involved in bonding with a new working companion.

Cessna and I were matched on May 27th, 2005. She was not truly ready to be responsible for a blind person but the trainers had confidence in my abilities and saw the chemistry between us. Cessna was only 18 months so had tons of maturing left to do. She barked at other dogs out of excitement, jumped around like a kangaroo when she saw squirrels or birds and couldn’t settle in my social work classes without a long run beforehand. This crazy, immature puppy is long gone and has been replaced by a mature, sensitive companion who desires to learn more everyday. Over the past 5 years Cessna and I have worked hard to understand what each other needs and have become a dream team.

With all the skills and experience I obtained “training” Cessna, I began looking for other learning opportunities and learned about Autism Dog Services. Huib and I had talked about what it would be like to raise an assistance puppy and had even gone as far as asking the LFC for a puppy to foster. We were told that instead of having to explain to some clients why they couldn’t raise a puppy when others could, that they had made it their policy to refuse everyone, but they said nothing was stopping us from fostering for another organization. Autism Dog Services was started by a former LFC trainer whom I knew from training with Gryphon and Phoenix. A couple LFC foster families we knew began raising puppies for ADS and suggested we contact them to see if we could also be of help. After a few e-mails back and forth we made the decision to welcome a 10 week old caramel coloured Labrador retriever into our home on March 1st, 2008.

We fostered Aiden until he was 13 months of age and began raising Reece in February of 2009. Our experience with autism Dog Services was both gratifying and heart aching. We loved having Aiden and Reece in our home and are thankful to have been given the opportunity to help ADS in providing independence and safety to children with autism, but this experience has also left us with some lessons. We don’t regret our decision to help raise Aiden and Reece for Autism Dog Services, but wish this experience didn’t have to be another hat placed on the shelf of tough lessons learned.

Since cutting our ties with autism Dog Services we made the decision to purchase a male golden retriever in December of 2009 and raise him as our future stud dog and obedience champion. Canyon is not a service dog, but he has taught me further lessons about loyalty and thinking outside the box. He will go for his health clearances in June and hopefully begin producing offspring who will carry on his temperament and lust for life and who knows, maybe one of them will become an assistance dog in the future.

Comments

  1. I’ve always thought it was neat that you had the opportunity to be a puppy raiser, as a guide dog user. At one time I had hoped to raise a puppy too, but I couldn’t get all the details worked out to make it happen.

    Thank you so much for participating in the ADBC and sharing your story! I’m checking links now, so the big list should be up on my blog soon.

    BTW: Not sure if you’re aware of this or not, but you have the Word Verification (CAPTCHA) feature on, which can make it difficult for some people to leave you comments, since it’s not accessible with a screen reader. You can turn that feature off by going to settings, comments, and selecting NO for the Word Verification option.

  2. So interesting to hear about everyone’s decisions and their experiences. I’ve wanted to raise a puppy but just can’t get the logistics worked out.

  3. Wow what a fascinating story. How neat that you saw both worlds even though it doesn’t sound like it worked out so well in the puppy raising world. It also looks like you’ve been through your fair share of working dogs and I’m so glad you finally found your match! Thanks for sharing!

  4. They are/were all great dogs and I think I was truly blessed to have met most of them and be a part of most of their lives.
    I miss my Cessnaroo! 🙂

  5. I really enjoyed reading this, especially because we have a lot in common! I lost my sight when I was seven months old due to a brain tumor that destroyed my optic nerve, and also had a shunt in my brain for a few months. Even though being blind was normal for me since I went blind so young, I too felt slow and awkward with the cane, and haven’t touched it since training with Gilbert two and a half years ago.
    I cannot imagine how difficult it must have been to lose your sight suddenly at 13, an age that is awkward and stressful enough as it is, but admire your positive attitude about it all. Great post!

  6. Hello Brook. I’m so sorry that your first guide didn’t really work. What a hard time you’ve had having to retire your dog, to raising puppies and all! Wow!

    I hope you and your current guide are around for a long time.

    Take care, Torie and guide dog Ushi

  7. Thank you everyone for your thoughtful comments 🙂 I enjoyed raising each of my puppies and am thankful to have been matched with Phoenix and Cessna, they have both taught me tons and left paw prints on my heart for different reasons. I’m also thankful to still have Phoenix, at 14 he’s been through a lot but he’s still got his “f*** you” personality and his loyalty is never ending. Cessna and I will celebrate our 6th year together in May and I’m already getting nervous about her retirement, but hope it is not for a couple more years.

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